sitting, waiting, wishing

Yes, today is my due date. And no, baby boy is still not here. I tried to mentally prepare myself for going over a week but i'm weak and find myself having little anxiety episodes and wanting to crawl out of my skin.  


On Tuesday I had to get an ultrasound to make sure everything was alright because my stomach hasn't really been growing much the last few weeks. My doc just wanted to make sure that my fluids were alright and that he was getting everything he needed. Thankfully, everything looked good. I was hoping I would be able to see him but he is too big now to really see anything in an ultrasound. The radiologist said he has lots of hair though--I had no idea they could see hair in an ultrasound, but i'm sure excited. 


It's time to come child. Pretty, pretty please?

 

Bucky and I both love the following names:

1. Hudson  

2. Brant 

3. Beckham  

I guess we will have to wait to see him.

First Examination

So I had my first examination today to see if i've dilated and whatnot. A med-student was there to observe the examination and thankfully I was able to decline her presence in the room. You may call me rude, but I do not need anyone else seeing my crotch. No thank you. I am now 38 weeks and dilated to a one and am 70% effaced. I'm not sure if effaced is the right word but it is something like that.  My doc told me that baby boy could be coming this week or maybe not for another three. I'm crossing my fingers that it is no longer than two weeks. I can't wait to see what he looks like. Maybe he will look like this...

or this

or (hopefully) this

Either way I will love him and can't wait for him to get here!

skool

I never thought I would say this...


I miss school.


I miss writing papers, reading articles, listening to the comments of annoying fellow students who believe they have to answer every question so that the professor is impressed, and actually feeling like I am somewhat smart. Without school my brain is withering away. I have a combination of pregnancy brain and school withdrawals--not good. So if I ever seem a little spacey or in another world when your talking to me, that's probably because I am. I apologize.  


In order to somewhat help solve this problem i've decided to learn a new word each week. At first I signed up for a daily email that contained a new and interesting word but that was too overwhelming for me. I can't handle learning one new word a day. One new word per week sounds much better for my diminishing brain. The word for this week is:


Sensational-adj.1.of or relating to the senses. 2.exceedingly great, outstanding. 3.arousing strong feelings, intense interest, often in an exaggerated way.


Your probably thinking that this isn't that cool of a word because it is quite common and easily understood but I decided I want to incorporate it into my vocabulary more. So there you have it, sensational.


Not only am I going to learn a new word each week but my big sis and I have started a book club, it's kind of a big deal. This month we are reading "Black Like Me" by John Howard Griffin.

I'm only into the first 50 pages so far but I absolutely love it. I highly recommend this book. This book is about a reporters real-life experience with the south in the 1960's. He goes through skin treatments to turn his skin black in order to fully experience the life of a black man in the south. People, this was only fifty years ago--you will be stunned when you read about what he went through. Stunned. 


I am now only down to 23 days until D Day. Yes, delivery day. It doesn't seem that long but I can't imagine my tummy getting any bigger, I feel like I might explode. Baby boy will be here soon though and I can't wait to meet him!


Have a sensational weekend now:)